The Gift of Grief and Loss
It’s the true letting go of someone who was my mentor, my protector and my dad. He was kind. I never heard a harsh word from him. Who allowed me to me.
Giving myself time to cry and miss the person who was in my life for almost 68 years. In the beginning of grieving, it’s almost every hour of each day. Over time the missing becomes more bearable.
Special memories of the person start to come back. What he said, what he did and how he held space when times were chaotic.
You asked for nothing. I gave you everything! It gave me purpose and a reason for being.
Now I discover where, what or how and for whom I give again…
I now have freedom. Freedom to choose where I live, to trave when I desire and live my life for me. I now need to learn what that looks like. To remove the need to rescue others from experiencing chaos or crisis in their life.
It’s time to give to me. Find what I love and choose that – do that.
It’s not selfish, it’s self-preservation.
I release the power of choice back to you. I will be the observer and hold you in love. It will come from the energy of acceptance. Being in the moments and resonating on what life has brought to me.
Grieving is the beginning of healing.
The leaving behind of what was.
The letting go of a life once lived. For the one that has died and the one that is left behind to continue living.
The loss of a relationship and a lifestyle.
Setting boundaries to move forward in a way that serves my highest and best interests.
Knowing how dad treated me and remembering that for myself.
Releasing what was and accepting what is, now.
Living in the energies of lost and allowing myself to feel deeply.
For this is a beginning, not an ending!
